VALENTINES DAY isnt just for ur r/s ship shit also friendship,team and family

Its just another shitty day even when i was attached i never celebrate anniversary for my r/s seriously what is this singaporeans thinking .... See like some humans . They make their own day u can give ur girl a flower on any other day even go to watch movie or even have........ Anyway did u know theres more hatred than love plus i never celebrate as im trying to follow my religion deeply .Even my birthday i never celebrate i just work ok. Becoz u can celebrate any other day or any other week becoz this world wont end only if ur dying then ur world will end . No matter what i eat im slimming down intensely i do not know why . so many things to share so many pictures words and quotes yet so little time for me . I have been trying so hard i wont give up until i stop breathing .. I think im just having a major relapse for my adjustment disorder but i still work security ... 12am-8am ouch sia but awesome pay i dont mind still its getting my body clock up .

Yoh its been a long time its already NEW YEAR 2014

SO OK HERE I GO IVE GOT A NEW JOB as an admin at bugis i wont tell which company though haha.. ANYWAYS  . ive so many things to write like theres so many ppl out there with big ego i love that u wanna know why ill flatten u if i dont then someone else would.BUT  itll still be awesome to just watch .... EVEN THOUGH I JUST BROKE UP . Let me tell u society just bring it ill throw things back at ya .I'll make sure its a big atom bomb muahahahaa seriously . THATS WHY MY quotes/codes are : Do'nt point a gun at me if youre ready to pull that trigger instead ill pull the trigger at you /.I'm the best there is in my little family that i have . Nobody's perfect but hey i always thrive for perfection in stuff if i cant ill keep doing it till its really PERFECT .Yes i DO INDEED CARE FOR others even strangers becoz to me people are like treasure to me and i dont like it if theres gonna be fighting . arghz tired to post pictures im in a rush sorry but im always in  a rush

MY LIFE a big change ,a different side of me unlocks in one way or the other

I dont know where or how to start but ive been different lately ,im not myself so many things happening at ones OK so December 26 Thursday my friend Victor Wong bought me a kamen rider beast s.h figuarts stand

OK december friday 27 i got this from them the dice saber which kamen rider beast use

december 28 saturday awesome day
went to bugis + .on this day i didnt take much photo although i wore my incomplete sub-zero cos for a while cos it was hot as hell met nice friends and ppl well u'll get to know me im a nice person so dont worry i wont bite although i dont know why there are ppl who are avoiding me sharks -_-" sorry trying not to swear as in say fark or sh*t .At night i came back my mom brought pizza here are the pics i ate them with mayonnaise

OK
December 29 sunday 2013
i met a new family a new group new ppl well i accept humans for who they are nobody's perfect right here are some pics i took
on that day

 this is my kamen rider accel collection

ok this is the new group i took all of this photo while recording video at the  same time sorry if it aint so perfect i nearly fell off my seat trying to take their photos 

In love ??

BABY I LOVE YOU . when i think of you i know that humans are greater but well your the greatest person in my life youve changed me a lot from who i was before and now im different. when i think back my dear love asrita youve showed me the path thanks to my prayers that i always pray to find the one that truly loves me.....

Everyone is falling apart ??

why is everyone falling into pieces when im not im ok im better now, all i need to do is find a new job thats all ill be out soon in this world ,even if everyone one becomes my enemies ill fight to protect the ppl i care about i know i'm like an idiot sometimes but i can't take this anymore .why wont everyone listen to me stop your yapping,... i know how this world works thats enough for me no need to lecture me in front of the world oh please i grew up in places no one has ever been knowledge is power knowledge is treasure you just need to know how to control yourself when u learn the worlds knowledge. IMPROVISE on this world's system .That's how these people who were just beggars becomes someone rich in this whole world ..... I know how this world works i have studied its system no matter how many times you goverment freaks change it ill always work around it to make myself, work properly .I've learned how to catch fishes with nets thats how ill catch the worlds treasure of power wealth knowledge. I'm a beast who's hunger for knowledge money and power ill keep it so that no one else knows its secrets .....

Well secrets that im revealing

I dont know whats wrong with me nowadays ,i kept on crying but i hide it from my mom,gf n my friends i dont think i can hold on for long im gonna burst soon what better way to do but just saying it out here . No one knows how painful it is to have dreams that ur chained up and its everytime its either in camp dreamt im chained down or its somewhere that i dont wanna go again oh please help help ! I did a lot of changes but my anxiety attack is getting worst at the point where it gives me headaches or feeling of faint i never tell my girlfriend but when im around her i feel peaceful i feel connected i feel different in a lot of ways but i do get anxiety attacks im not gonna tell her yet well its my real secret . Listen im sorry if i ever doubted you or im over protective as a friend im just sorry i was like that i just dont wanna loose another friend thats why im so over protective just like my mom i dont want my mom to marry another i dont want her to get hurt someppl cant feel that pain that i felt only ppl who ever experienced this tragedy. I know it is all in the past but it hunts me sometimes when im outside things that makes me remind of the past gets to my mind and ill get that anxiety attacks ... Not everyone know how pressured i feel in this reality with money friend bills people to please i just feel like just not doing it anymore . I need a comeback i need to get away for awhile. So please understand me my honey,friends,family. Just understand sometimes I CANt give it my all give it my best because im worned out tired and i need a real break from all of this I dont know im just writing what im feeling right now ./...

The power of love is powerful

erm welp here goes something i guess lifes kinda been so hectic so busy i wanna compose my song but it aint that easy and it isnt that easy even to write stories or even just think of a character for the story or character song well yeah .. Well recently i have a lot of things to do and its fasting month wah so fast n its gonna be hari raya again well i just get bored of raya idk why but i feel that way a lot  .. recently i receive a lot of msgs from fb well thats private well if i state love in my blog i have to write something thats related here about love isnt it my love life ok la but i can say one thing its private no one knows about it i plan to keep it secret im the type of person when i look into a girl i want to be with them until i get married oh come on man thats me even though i have a lot of ex that i thought i want to bring into my life as my wife ... I can say one thing la if youre so scared and don wanna open up to ppl its pathetic i know im scared of ppl but i do give it a try ... whats more pathetic is that someone took u away i dont care really well im the type of person thats serious anyways i plan on to have a big house and everything i just pray and hope it does goes well everything did go well because i was patient with a lot of things well now i heck care what ur doing but know this i dont care about u ..... well if u do read i dont care .  well im already attached so please do not ever ask who it is because im making my love life super private ,i cant trust that much ppl i do trust some well you guys know who you are whether  i trust u that much or not it all depends on your thinking thats all ......